Christian theology can be quite perplexing even to the holy men. But religion and spirituality doesn´t need to be so if one has simple child-like faith. But again, how can one hold onto blind faith and hope in times of trouble, confusion and chaos? Even if we cut all the noise and distraction of the world, we have our own inner turmoil to face each and every day.
As for me, writing serves as therapy but it is not the ´be all and end all´. There are times when I find writing to be a draining experience. Not to forget isolating! As I write on some pertinent issues, I realise there are no easy answers. There is no single truth. There is truth in all perspectives. As a writer, one of the qualities to possess is humility. To understand that your thoughts are one amongst so many. There is truth and power in what your write but there´s so much more. And, that is why it is just as much as important to read and understand others´ views as well.
Does writing satisfy my soul?
There was a time when I strongly believed that it did. Today, I know better. It does not. It is a beautiful form of self-expression and a soothing therapy. But, what I have learnt more than ever in this one year of active writing is that it is not what my soul craves for.
I´ve realised how much quality family time I have sacrificed for the sake of writing. Nothing satisfies my soul as much as a warm hug and kiss from/to my husband and daughter. Nothing can replace that. Nothing satisfies my soul more than surrendering to the will of a higher force in play. Nothing soothes me more than going to church, listening to the clanging of the bells, joining in the adoration and singing of the choir, kneeling on the floor and participating in the Holy Mass.
There is something beautiful about simple routine and surrendering fully to it. Surrendering to your family, friends and God. It humbles you and teaches you that there is more to life than you. It does not have to centre around you to bring happiness. You could be a silent spectator standing on the periphery and yet be blessed with joy, beauty and satisfaction.
As for all world problems, there is no escaping that for sure. To all the darkness, madness and chaos that seems to be rising in the current times, there will be an answer. There has to be….Isn´t hope all we´ve got! Besides, if the rose and thorn can coexist and let it be, so can the rest of us mankind! We don´t need to let it go. We can let it be, choose not to partake and continue to be.
So, ´Let it be´ is my musing for this Monday. And yes, I will keep penning and let that be too.