´There´s a crack in everything, that´s how the light gets in´ (From Leonard Cohen´s Anthem)
While the streets have been filled with festive cheer, thanks to Ganesh Chaturthi and Eid over the last couple of days, the same couldn´t be said about my world inside. The last few days have been tough, thanks to the monthly hormonal battles that plague every women, but it also was a period of shock, unexpected setbacks and some serious self-introspection. Of course, there were accolades and lots of fantastic news otherwise, but when your personal world goes upside down, nothing can really cheer you up.
Here´s what I learnt from it all! There´s a reason why things happen. Even the bad ones! It´s essential to be torn in places that you never thought you could. It´s essential to be challenged and beaten in order for you to learn to find a way to rise up again. It´s essential to feel shame and pain in order to appreciate love and kindness. It´s important to break in order to be healed again.
I went to church this Sunday and the gospel message this week was something on the lines of the following – Ín times of trouble, let me not forget you, Lord!´. Somehow, it all made sudden sense to me! There´s only path that I tread when I´m clueless and hopeless. Yes, I turn to my Creator! Maybe, this was HIS way of bringing me back on track. Like the shepherd who went in search of the lost sheep, this was HIS way of bringing me back to his fold. But, the message also made me realize how easy it was forget HIM when things are going great.
For me, the biggest spiritual challenge was not going to God in times of trouble, it has been needing and seeking God with the same fervour and passion when I had it all. The past few days showed me in many ways how I was taking many things and people for granted. It´s good and essential that it happened. Like the Good Friday, when it was essential for Christ to be broken, hurt, shamed and abused to rise up again. Everything happens for a reason!
We are in the last leg of the year. These past few days also gave me the much needed impetus to reflect on my New Year goals. It´s been a period of self-introspection of what´s important and what´s not, what´s working and what´s not, what needs focus and attention and what does´t.
Yes, the last few days I felt torn in all possible directions but Come Monday, I´m on the path to a healing and a new and rejuvenated me.
I´d like to sign off with Leonardo Caprio´s quote – Évery next level of your life will demand a different You.´
But for that to happen, my friend, it is essential to be torn.
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